i dont even care

i miss you already. i miss little smiles that creep onto the corners of my mouth no matter how much i try to keep them inside.
i miss little nose taps and belly farting, and armpit napping.

i need a second sleep, because first sleep has not been satisfactory at all- i keep falling asleep wishing my body was not alone in my cold tiny bed. i want your arms around me, i want to breathe loudly with you all night. synchronized shoe tying and impromptu beach wood sculptures that rest in recent memory come alive again when i close my eyes.

i wish that i could ease your worries with my thoughts, but i cant make you feel okay in this.






are we different, misunderstood and eagerly judged?
i think we are so much the same, and just the right amount different.
i love that you are so humble in your knowledge- you have a mind for yourself and dont need the approval of your peers.

i wish i could reign in my emotions and feel at peace inside.