that point on every line where buidings kiss the trees

just thinking makes my head swim and my mouth turn into this involuntary goofy grin. what is this feeling again? i once read something that completely embodied this feeling i have right now.
my throat feels so much better, i feel like a new woman..ha i said woman. what a dork. seeing katie made me so happy i missed her to the end, it's like we never skipped a beat though just jumped back in. she totally cares about me, in a way i never had a friend care before, my happiness is actually important. it is really nice. jon looked better than we thought he would, i tried to make him feel better by saying that he looked better than he would have if he had had a firecracker go off in his face, or than he would if he had been hit by a car also. poor kid though, maybe he will wear a helmet though now.

i am so content right now in life. even though i ate WAY too much for dinner and kind of gave myself a tummy ache.

ALSO thankyou scottaroo for helping me locate some bikes and checking them out for me...and telling me that a 48cm bike might be a little small for me...i totally wold have bought it and rode around like a clown in a circus on a baby bike!

*currently listening to a really nice version of that song heart of glass by Nouvelle Vague.*

waking up in this sun bleached room,
the buzzing of a fruit fly reminds me that it is saturday.
closing my eyes i become you,
your wings move a million times per minute
i traverse the air like an expert-
having my knowledge of the room-
and lead you safely to a cracked drawer
where you find the berries i have left for you,
i indulge for your sake-as i usually do,
and lead your tiny body out through the crack,
through the gap between the door and the floor,
out into the hall-
where i leave you to search for another soul.

opening my eyes i reach for another who is absent in my arms,
my lips kiss themselves,
i reach again and cool water goes slowly down my throat,
the act of waking reminding me of the quiet ache that is alone-
now that your tiny body is gone.